Life Update | Saying Goodbye & Falling in Love

I thought I’d take a second away from beauty reviews to write something a bit more personal. I know I’ve not been posting as much as I usually do or been as active on social media. There’s been a lot of changes in my life; some amazing and some devastating. All in all the last few weeks, months even, have been completely overwhelming. Very recently I had to very suddenly say goodbye to one of the biggest loves of my life, my nan. She was truly a beautiful person inside and out and I can honestly say that a huge chunk has been ripped out of my heart. Just last week I sat by her bed holding her tiny hand as Penny put her finger to her mouth to tell me to ‘shhhh’ because I was sobbing and I told her nan was sleeping. I feel empty and angry that she has been taken away from me. We weren’t ready, are you ever?

If you follow me on Twitter you might have already heard that I am expecting a baby! The cliche of life being a rollercoaster has never been truer. As much as I want to stay in bed all day, this baby, as well as my beautiful Penny, is the reason I’ve been trying to take care of myself in any small way possible despite my heart being ripped in half. I feel a little guilty feeling happy as I hold my tummy at a time where I should be shrouded in sadness, but I can’t help but love that tiny bump already. It may seem silly to write about makeup at a time when I claim to be in so much turmoil, but in reality, my blog has been the perfect distraction even though it is proving difficult to concentrate these days. Bear with me, everyone!